hyperfixations (since u been gone)

didn’t pilot the EVA since last time

(please stop copying me...y'all look unbelievably desperate)

ALSO

since i'm acknowledging

"the elephant in the room"

(why i don't skate anymore)

here is why

FOR YEARS

these losers have done

everything in the book

to

try and shake me

(literally since childhood)

doing shit like:

(prepare the list is long)

calling me

"a faggot"

(i've seen y'all damn near makeout with "the good homie")

calling me

"a loser"

(none of y'all can be alone longer than an hour)

saying

"i suck"

(i washed the "cream of the crop" wearing a pimple patch)

calling me

"a retard"

(that's projection)

thinking i'm

"not that smart"

(y'all can't even make shit that's watchable)

calling me

"a pedophile"

(to the point people grabbed their children in my presence)

calling me

"a creep"

(i'm quiet so i don't tell you to jump off a bridge)

ignoring my existence

(don't you wish you were less insecure now)

pointing and laughing at me

UNPROVOKED

(mocking me won't change reality)

spitting in my water

(what are you 11?!?)

spitting at me

(a SOTY i voted for spat at me)

spitting on me

(literally a fucking hate crime)

calling me out my name

(now you losers try to use my name for clout)

shunning me

(cult behavior)

exiling me

(cult behavior...part 2)

trying to

meddle in my love life

(my dick is freakishly suckable and i'm funny...you lose)

invading the fuck out of my privacy

(y'all are obsessed...take a Kinsey Test)

stalking me

(a felony)

and

so much more

(there's shit that i missed because they're too pussy to tell me)

all this

"shit"

(trying to make me kill myself)

and

you

STILL

expect me to

"kiss the ring"

(dick suck the losers that caused me so much strife)

you must be

OUT OF

YOUR FUCKING MIND

to think

any of this shit

is worth my fucking time

(truly some of the most delusional people i've interacted with)

all this shit

just for being

"good"

(lightyears ahead of whatever bullshit they can concoct)

oh yeah and to protect

LITERAL FUCKING PEDOPHILES

(a 30 y/o having a 17 y/o drive to fuck you for a t-shirt)

now

all these

fucking dorks

do is

copy me

RELENTLESSLY

(i made your favorite skater wear a fucking crop top LOL)

down to

my upload schedule

(you're a massive magazine...do your fucking job)

my tricks

(you have the mind of an idiot...it will always look like shit)

and

my mannerisms

(literally fucking yuck)

when all i wanted

THIS ENTIRE TIME

was to

"enjoy myself"

(skate my little heart out)

and

(POSSIBLY)

"get paid my worth"

(i literally only wanted 80k a year...i'm worth millions)

GOD FORBID

"I LIVE MY LIFE"

(get my dick sucked while your insecure ass is alive to see it)

SO

NO I DON'T

"FEEL THE NEED TO SAVE IT FROM DYING"

(...i do more than enough...)

the most

"FUCKED UP"

(catastrophically unfair)

part about this is

I LOVE SKATEBOARDING

(it's one of my first loves)

I DON'T WANT TO SEE IT DIE

(it literally can't die...it lives in people)

I ALMOST DIED FOR IT

(MULTIPLE TIMES)

and

I DO ALL OF THIS

(AND ALWAYS HAVE)

FOR FREE

BECAUSE

I UNDERSTAND

IT'S CULTURAL NECESSITY

(you fucks only understand clout and capitalism)

RANT OVER

sorry if i

"hurt your feelings"

(use those t-shirts that won't sell to dry your fucking tears)

playing

BLEACH

Rebirth of Souls

(...Rangiku's tits scare me...)

BEEN BUSY

(i literally didn't even relax on vacation)

SO

BEWARE

this one is

“girthy”

(god forbid i take up space on my own platform)

so

TONS O' MEDIA

(since u been gone edition)

OKAY

so shit is 

FUCKED UP

(i told y’all shit was worse than you thought)

SO

“the bbc”

(me)

is back to

“mind fuck you”

(i was waiting until bruh got “removed” but y’all miss me)

SO 

for the 

first time 

in a

long time 

WORLD SPORTS

so

initially 

i had read 

Pam Bondi 

FOR FUCKING FILTH

(you’re lucky your boss is more reptilian than you)

but 

since shit is 

SERIOUSLY HITTING THE FAN

(and getting on everyone)

you’re now 

“little fish”

(you still might as well whore but you're safe for now)

i have 

“a few things”

on my mind

(so much shit i’ve been mumbling in anger for days)

so 

Sam Altman

(mini zuck)

BRING THAT ASS HERE

as someone who has 

used AI extensively 

and 

understands it pretty well 

(and since doesn’t use it anymore)

i can tell you

IN FULL CONFIDENCE

this

FUCKING LOSER

is 

SELLING SNAKE OIL

(really good snake oil but snake oil nonetheless)

“automation” 

(systems that alleviate the brunt of the labor off of humans)

is

the key to freedom

“AI”

(a capitalist buzzword)

is

the key to our demise

Sam Altman 

is one of the people on my 

“only upright on camera”

list

(Joe Rogan and him are in the fetal position for 22+ hours)

to be 

THIS SUBSERVIENT

to this 

fascist

oligarchic 

pedophilic 

BULLSHIT

(not you being a cuck for pedophilia)

proves you have 

NO IDEA

what you’re in charge of

and 

NO IDEA

the power that you wield 

(aww is someone too cash poor for morwls)

if you actually

UNDERSTOOD AI

you’d know 

that bitch is 

"FUCKING STUPID"

(like talking to someone more autistic than me)

if you don’t give it

A MOUNTAIN OF CONTEXT

you'll get

“gobbledygook”

(the correct answer if you’ve never smelt fresh air or came)

so to 

hand over the keys

to these 

“FUCKING IDIOTS”

(mfers i wouldn’t trust to run a Costco)

is borderline 

PYCHOTIC

(just b/c you’re autistic doesn’t mean you aren't a scammer)

not only are you 

“giving them the keys”

(willingly letting psychopaths destroy the world for a check)

you’re also letting them 

“take the top off”

(removing all safety protocols and allowing it to run wild)

which

AGAIN 

is 

FUCKING PHYCHOTIC

(you think it's not gonna send a missile to your crib first?!?!)

war 

isn’t

funny

(they literally bombed children to avoid accountability)

the world

was 

LOWEKEY

AT PEACE

(as much as 8 billion people on a rock can be)

speaking for myself

MOST PEOPLE

don't have the

TIME OR ENERGY

for y'alls

PHYCHOTIC BULLSHIT

(there's literally bitches to fuck)

so

to side with the fucks

who only perpetuate more war 

to

deflect from 

(ALLEGEDLY)

having their dick in little kids for 40 years

(there’s 3 million plus files proving it but whatever)

and 

(ALLEGEDLY)

committing large-scale voter fraud

(bruh wouldn’t be tweeting like a 13 y/o girl if he didn’t)

 just proves 

YOU HAVE NO SPINE

(even Elizabeth Holmes knew when she was cooked)

i know you 

don’t have any friends 

to tell you 

you’re fucking up

(shout out autism)

so

...i’ll tell you...

(tism to tism)

YOU’RE 

FUCKING UP 

SAM

(big time)

if you

keep it up

you’ll be

in the history books

as

the munitions company 

that supplied 

“Hitler”

(Donny Diddler)

with

world-ending power

(aka a fucking loser)

and not

Sam Altman:

"billionaire"

scumbag scammer

who was in way over his head  

(you’ve caused too much pain to be looked at fondly)

ALSO

GET IT TOGETHER

y'alls

INSATIABLE GREED

could

RUIN GAMING

(FOREVER)

THE MEANING OF MARIAH CAREY

we all know

I LOVE

MARIAH CAREY

(The Emancipation of Mimi got me through my retail era)

i'm also

"skateboarding's biggest diva"

(y'all are lucky this blog is my biggest "diva fit")

SO

obviously

i loved it

and 

heavily relate 

(not knowing you’re famous is an autistic rite of passage)

BUT

this 

write up 

is

less about her book

(i can’t really add more it’s literally peak)

and 

more about

the way

“i experienced it”

(god forbid media come in different formats)

at first 

i was 

reading it on my kindle

and 

I LOVED IT

(she had me giggling and almost crying on the train)

but 

something in my heart 

was telling me

“listen to the audiobook”

(my intuition knew there was peak on the horizons)

BUT

because you

“DUMB FUCKS”

(literary fascist)

try to 

shame mfers 

out of 

counting audiobooks

 as

“reading”

(some people literally don’t have the privilege of sight)

i almost

missed out

on this bitch 

giggling 

and 

breaking out into song 

MID FUCKING SENTENCE

(like i said the shit is peak)

reading it

(with my eyes)

i was like 

“fuck she’s funny”

(as a bitch)

but then

listening to her 

say her own jokes 

in her own cadence 

(even breaking because even she can’t help but giggle)

you realize

“this fucker could have been a comedian”

(a sign of a traumatic childhood)

even 

hearing her well up 

during 

the traumatic parts

are

better in her voice

(it's kind of the best way to ingest it)

and not

the projections

of my own 

fucky inner monologue

(even with my traumatized brain i wasn’t getting full context)

never let

“dickheads”

(lifeless losers) 

sway you from enjoying yourself

(please touch grass)

they’re only holding onto things

THAT TIGHTLY

because they have

NOTHING ELSE TO CLING TO

(if you’d let go you’d realize the world is waiting)

Mariah Carey

is a

LEGEND

(in every sense of the word)

this book 

SLAPS

(mama got TRUAMA and KNOWLEDGE)

which is why she

DESEVERS THE LIFE SHE HAS

(the subtle flexes in here are crazy)

if she

didn't flex 

(man does she let you know she’s rich as fuck)

you’d forget it’s a book about 

one of the greatest singers 

ON THE PLANET

(in the history of the planet)

and not 

the tragic memoir 

of a

freakishly talented

pretty

mixed girl

from

Long Island

with 

LEGENDARY

mixed girl problems

(the recipe for one of the greatest singers to ever live)

KENA: BRIDGE OF SPIRITS

(beaten feb 16th...score 4.5/5)

okay so

i started playing this 

after seeing them 

reveal the newest one

(MAN THAT FUCKER LOOKS YUMMY)

at the

Playstation State of Play

(s/o Watts’ stream)

and 

she was 

hyping up the first one 

plus

i actually trust her judgement

(that mfer be PLAYING GAMES)

SO

i decided to 

give it a shot 

since it was 

on sale 

(these corporate fuckers might as well sell drugs)

needless to say 

I’M FUCKED UP

(i was busy skating so i didn’t know this existed)

these mfers

really know how to

"get my dick hard"

(give me mystical powers and a double jump)

also

y'all know me

obviously 

I’M FUCKING CRYING

(hard)

“wHy DoN’t YOu sTrEAm?!?”

(there’d be hour long compilations of me crying)

outside of

the story

(there's room for improvment but fuck it's good)

the

gameplay 

is 

MUAHHH

(finally someone gets it)

so often 

“developers”

(code monkeys for corporations)

are 

OBSESSED 

with

“the world”

 (some overly massive hyperrealistic bullshit)

and not

“how the world makes you feel”

(these fuckers had me kicking my feet and giggling)

this feels like

“a video game ass video game”

(the shit that alchemized my childhood)

it’s 

lowkey on rails

but 

lowkey not 

(big enough to get lost…small enough to find your way)

with

a skill tree 

that isn’t

“the tree of life”

(so massive you’ll never explore half of it)

it’s also 

NOT THAT DIFFICULT

(i beat the Warrior first try)

BUT 

it’s also 

NOT PISS EASY

(if i’m not paying attention i be getting fucked in the ass)

SO

needless to say 

I’M IN LOVE

(some gay bitches definitely made this)

also

BIG SHOUT OUT

to

“my rots”

(cunty pikmin)

they're the

cutest lil fuckers on the face of the earth

and

 i’d do anything for them

(ANYTHING)

BRAVO

ember lab

i can’t wait for 

Kena: Scars of Kosmora

(most likely a day one pick up)

THANK YOU

for making me 

“cum”

(from the orgasmic fluidity of gameplay)

and 

“cry”

(grief is a process)

being an

“ethical grim reaper”

(someone had to do it)

is 

EMOTIONALLY TAXING

(acceptance can be a violent process for the stubborn)

BUT

SPIRITUALLY REWARDING 

(healing y’all heals me)

☢︎