didn’t pilot the EVA all week

(i’ve never skated to BIRDS OF A FEATHER)

CONGRATS

MAYOR MAMDANI!

i look forward to living in a city

with

“A FUCKING BRAIN ON DE PITCH”

(run by someone who gives a fuck)

been playing

Mini Metro

(it’s becoming my Candy Crush)

still doing

ALL THE THINGS

(fucking eating)

so

whole lotta shit

“pending”

(🙄🙄🙄)

so

ONES O’ MEDIA

(ODU edition)

(…this nigga Lelouch…)

CODE GEASS

okay so this one is going to be

“chaotic”

(severely lacking structure)

because this show has haunted me

FOR YEARS

my first

“exposure”

(encounter with fate)

to this was in my

sophomore year of college

(the oddest year of my life)

they had

“somehow”

(some sick neurotypical psyop)

placed me and all the other

“freaks”

(people so autistic the entire campus knew but us)

in one

4 x 2 suite

(literal hell)

so for a year it’s

me

and

some of the oddest people on campus

(myself included)

living together

like it’s

Jersey Shore: Autism Edition

(there was no smush room…obviously)

so imagine a home with

little to no conversation

(EVER)

yet i sleep

7 feet away from you

(i literally don’t remember having a single conversation all year)

one day

i get back from

“class”

(doodling for 50 mins…thinking about skating)

to my

11’ x 15’

joke of a shared room

to my roommate watching

Code Geass

on his mini laptop

LOCKED TF IN

(the autism was strong in that one)

it would get to the point where

he’d

press pause

(calmly)

take off his headphones

(calmly)

get out his seat

(calmly)

then proceed to

jump around

and

hyperventilate

through the house

(you can imagine my reaction)

only to

(CALMLY)

sit down

and

press play

like

nothing happened

(the autism was STRONG in that one)

FOR YEARS

i told that story with

“ick”

(i hadn’t come to terms that we were more similar than i realized)

BUT NOW

(12 years later)

I’M FULLY BRUH

(jumping around my crib hyperventilating to peak)

this nigga

Lelouch

is worse than

Light Yagami

(BY LIKE A MILLION)

i don’t really have much else to say

(holy fuck that was good)

BUT

i do want so say

i wish i had a more

“open mind”

when i was younger

(known i was one traumatic event away from a weighted blanket)

if i consciously knew i was

“autistic”

(could use geass to bend the world to my will)

maybe that year wouldn’t have been so

“weird”

(lonely as fuck)

we probably would have been

jumping around

and

hyperventilating

through the house

together

(as freaks do)

☢︎